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“‘Sorry Son, your Dad f*cked up again, I have to go back to living in prison ya see, this is hard on me,’” Tyler’s poem continues. “Are you f*cking kidding me, this is hard for me man, don’t you see! His face cringes with pain & he collects his tears as his ears hear the collect call disappear.”
Tyler reveals that this incident is what triggered his suicidal thoughts: “He sits in the middle of the kitchen, tears are falling to the floor as he rests his head on the cabinet door & asks what is this life even worth living for?”
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“He sees the knives on the counter, he thinks maybe he can go out that way, he just wants his mind to stop the wander, to stop the shower, of all these emotions that hold all the power, stacked as high as a tower & that tower keeps holding the power to blocking the sunlight, he’s lost in this dark city of towers & now he’s lost in this dark fight, so now he realizes he really has lost all the power,” Tyler writes. Then he recalls his suicide attempt.
“He climbs up a tree in the backyard & starts to ponder. As tears fall from his cheeks, he can see the rope that’s tied to a tire, where he used to swing as a kid just to see if he could get higher. He’s always been a fighter, but he thinks today is his time to surrender. He grabs that rope, ties it around his neck, then jumps with the weight of all his emotions & he can’t seem to cope with all that, which makes the rope snap back.”