Leah Messer Reveals She Was Molested As a Child

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Although Leah’s mother Dawn helped her get off of the pills, when she reunited with her father who had substance abuse issues of his own, he gave her more pills and re-enabled her addiction.

“A lot of that period of my life is just a blackout to me. Even though people will tell me I did things. I don’t remember, or I’ll watch footage of myself on the show and have no memory of it,” Leah writes.

One of Leah’s biggest fears at the time was losing custody of her girls.

“I have to pretend I’m okay. If I slip up, even a little, it could give the twins’ dad ammunition he could use to get custody of them,” she penned.

At rock bottom, Leah attempted suicide by driving off of a cliff.

“There’s a steep cliff off the side of the road just up ahead. It would be so easy to drive my car over the edge. Then it would all be over. No more worries. No more failure. No more pain,” Leah wrote.

After this dark point, Leah checked into rehab. She now cites that decision as the “best choice” that she ever made.

“I’m still working on myself, growing as a person, and striving to be the best mother I can be,” Leah concludes.

“I can’t control what life throws at us, but what I can do is teach my daughters to live their lives with hope, grace, and faith.”